Thread:Ursuul/@comment-29771477-20170303005140

I hope your fever is slightly better cuz I'm basically having a seizure right now and I need you.

Invention Convention (the thingie with teh box) is on Tuesday, a ginormous book report is due on Monday, I'm also performing two festival songs at one of the biggest concert venues in Calgary at 7:00 pm on Monday, there's a huge Math test that I'm going to probably fail on the 20th, my Leadership project about the CEO of YouTube is a week overdue, my short story for Spanish is due on Monday, AND I have an assignment that's basically an open book "test" that's also due ASAP.

GOD HELP MEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Aside from that, the girl named Jaden (the one who once cried at the assembly about bullying) has been talking and talking and talking with my best friend Roxy for months and I finally understand EVERYTHING. The crying, the passed notes, the whispered conversations, her knowing EXACTLY who Ashi (that one girl Roxy liked) got a love note from. They're BOTH LGBTQ, not just Roxy, and Roxanne has been talking to Jaden about it FOREVER. Jaden told us all about it in Archery (Gym) class today. I mean, you could probably care less, but this is BIG to me. It's like I just found out the world was triangle shaped! And all this time I've been envious of Jaden because she had a boyfriend........

Which leads to another big dramatic thing, which is that I've decided to go to the Gay Pride Parade with Roxy, Jaden, Roxy's cousin Ada, and anybody else that comes with us. And, I'm going to lie to my parents about it, just as Roxy will (because she hasn't come out to anyone but me, Liv, Jaden, Ada, Bri, Abraham (the soup guy), Ashi, and maybe one or two more friends idk about). Why must I lie? Because my friend Emma, a vegan who likes the Green Party and wants to be an activist in today's society, went to a Pride Parade years and years and YEARS ago, told us about it while showing off rainbow glasses, and my dad subsequently told me how she shouldn't have been there because "there must've been big weird men dressed like girls there". Also, my dad's side of the family in general is pretty against popular movements, activism, and liberal ways of thinking politically in general. I already tried to take the first step and poke at the first hurdle, which is getting my über-overprotective parents to let me go downtown without them in the middle of Summer.

What if they realize that the day we're going downtown is the day of the Pride Parade?!?!?!?!?!? It's bound to be broadcast all over the place! AHHHHHHHHHHH?!?!?!??!


 * deep breaths*

I could go on about that all day, but there's also the fact that I got severely rejected today by Kobi, the guy I like, which has basically made my day explode in a runny mess on my face like a giant shit cake. Bronwyn started it.

I'm sorry for the long post. I've been here for hours instead of doing the mountain of aformentioned work, and I feel like I've had 50 cups of coffee.

Listen, I'm gonna get real serious here for a second. I'm very VERY sorry for fighting and arguing needlessly with SMG, and I regret a lot of things I said. I knew I upset her, I was way too argumentative, and I caused a lot of trouble. I was upset at her actions and some of her words, and I felt extra emotional because of problems with my mom, but that's no excuse. I've learned my lesson. I would really appreciate if I had my chat rights back. If you would like me to go to SMG's wall and apologize, or try to make things better some other way, I'm willing to do that. I'll also learn to deal with it if you say no. I just figured that keeping the ban for 3 more days when I won't be here anyways is kind of pointless, and I really want to start talking to you, Nobellion, SR, and others and stuff, especially now that I'm trying to get my shit together. Can you please cancel my ban now????

Um, I'll probably come up with a million other things to say after I write this, but please read it. I'll try to haul my butt back here and in gear on Tuesday, but no promises.

Sincerely, hopefully, and whilst spazzing out,

Your Friend, Aysha. 