Thread:Ursuul/@comment-29771477-20170720001704/@comment-29771477-20170720054550

1. *cringe smiles* 2. Ha, thanks.....It might take a while to get a decent one because my dad sounded a little annoyed when I told him about it, then tried to change the subject, then failed at that and said "Yeah, I'll think about that, that's gonna cost loads of money to buy and even more for lessons and repairs and-" but I said "I don't want lessons, I'm gonna watch tutorials and google finger pickings" so he said "I don't think that would work in a small apartment...(cuz we live in a lil' condo)" and I said in response to that "I'll go to school early to practice in the band room or play it outside at the park" to which he said something about the trip to New Mexico he's paying for me to go on and how he and my mom are "paying for that so it better not be expensive" to which I said "no I just want a tiny one and it could be one literally made for 5 year olds and be horribly out of tune I don't care it won't cost loads of money I prom-" and before I could even continue he said "It BETTER NOT BE LOADS OF MONEY because I DON'T HAVE LOADS OF MONEY" to which I repeated myself then he said "K, can we talk about something else" and I said "Sure, just consider it" and he said "Well wait a year or two to see if you're still interested to which I said "I'm pretty positive this isn't gonna change" then HE GOT MAD AT ME FOR RESPONDING AFTER HE WAS THE ONE WHO SAID SOMETHING ELSE ABOUT THE UKE (ugh) and we started talking about something else as my grammy listened in the background. Also, just so you know, I have thorough.....negative emotions from typing that detailed of a response because my creeping suspicion that my walls of text are horrible and ruin people like you's day is back going strong. 3. (DOUBT) 4. lol 5. ???? Lol What?? Which part?? ???? What Jaden said, that my dad and his parents hate people who are gay with a passion, that my grammy loves dodie, all of that, none of it, or only some of it?????? (Extra): General update on life/my mood today: I REALLY FUCKING WANT A GIRL (LIKE JADEN) to hold my hand and kiss me and do all that jazz but I'm too much of a lost mess to be exciting enough for things like that to happen to me, so I'm stuck in an endless circle of obvious, predictably fruitless hopefulness and then failure. I'm really tired of it honestly.
 * ))))) It's too bad you'll be gone, but you're lucky you can go to the beach. As for me covering for you.....I would probably be rolling on the floor laughing if I didn't feel horribly numb rn (I feel almost as bad about constantly mentioning my depression as I do about the incredibly long walls of text thing)....you really think a fuck-up like me that can't organize anything or code for shit or be un dramatic can come even CLOSE to being like you??? Pffffff.....sorry, that's not happening. I'll try anyways....I guess. BUT yes like I said I'll be hanging around plenty