Thread:Ursuul/@comment-29771477-20170913131116

I don't know why I'm back here at your wall ranting. I don't. But like, I just had what I think is the worst bad dream of my life. I've gone back to fantasizing about suicide and what I would (will?) put on my suicide note, so I must of did myself in and set off my brain while doing that. I don't want to go into details just yet, but trust me, it was THE worst. I basically just had a vivid breakdown and said that I knew my mom was smoking and I hated her to drive her away from me. Lemme tell you, it didn't work at all. The more I think about calling CPS, the more I know it's not gonna happen. I just can't handle losing the option of where I go to school and all my friends, along with more unseen losses. I can't handle that. I can't I can't I can't I can't I can't.....

But I really want (need) help. 