Thread:Teamerz/@comment-29771477-20170908014730

I think the reason I often feel like I've wrongly self-diagnosed myself with depression even though I want to kill myself often (suicidal urges, so to speak), have almost no interest in everything but YouTube and sometimes books, self-harm etc. is because I have these instead:

|Dysthymia

and

|Cyclothymia

aka I keep switching between "EVERYTHING IS GREAT LET'S GOOOO" and "I want to fucking kill myself end me" but it's not severe enough to count as bipolar or "real" depression. And it just keeps going and going and going (definitely for more than a year, one of the symptoms from the page) because of my mom's continual abuse, lulling me into a false sense of "being okay/fine" or even "ABSOLUTELY FANTASTIC/AMAZING" for months and weeks on end until I drop off into depression land again.

So, wha'do ya think? In your opinion, do you think I'm probably right for once, or talking outta my ass/self-diagnosing even more inaccurately? 