Board Thread:General Discussion/@comment-29771477-20170228031007/@comment-29771477-20170228140125

Awww, thanks guys. Don't be sad though!

@TOTMGsRock: Wow, now my life's sounding a lot less hard. I've always tried to relate to/be friends with kids who have brain problems/mental illnesses, because sometimes they're the only ones who don't sense ulterior motives when you try to tell them things. I hope you are all right and get good help if that's what you want.

@SR: See, SR gets the funniness part lol.

@UltraReconKing: No no! Don't be in pain! I mean-I'm in pain almost all the time in one way or another, but don't be because of this, please! Why else are you in pain?

@UltraReconKing again: Nope. I was already having the idea of letting other users throw in their strategies, and then I would clean it up/fix grammar, spelling, etc, so that was another reason I figured leaving could be good. Like "closing my eyes and turning around", so to speak. I'll wait for other users to use their creativeness (which I lack) and edit in some "Against the Ranger" and "Survival" strategies there.

@Kuro: Thanks for the support, and I'm glad you're not so sad anymore. (Unless you're hiding it...?) Are you leaving or no? Please don't go.

@Robotguy39: Thanks for the rhyme, it made me smile. ; )

@Skye Sim: Oh yes, I'll deeeeefinetly miss myself soooo much. ; ) But haha, this is the first time I'm talking to you directly and am saying more than just a few words. So I appreciate your........concern? No no, I appreciate that you care about me leaving.

And last but most importantly, Nobellion.

@Nobellion: Thank you for all your good wishes and being such a good force in this wikia. When I first met you, I thought you were just another regular user. I had no idea of your amazing editing capabilities orwhat the future would hold. But you have turned out to be calm, decisive, clear, and an all-around brilliant person. You'll always work your butt off to get to a goal. So thanks for that, and know that me and all the other staff are very grateful for that.

I appreciate that you care about me leaving and have not been mean about it. Everytime I see you and Ursuul or Smg in chat I get a strange subconscious feeling that you and them are talking about how much nicer chat is without me, or how glad you are to have a break from me, even though I know that's not the kind of things you like to say. As I said, it's a really heart-crushing feeling.

Another thing that makes me sad is how in one of your various messages strewn around trying to persuade me to stay, you said, "Your justice has been served". I know you didn't mean that in a mean way at all, but that was one of the things that made me want to leave for good. Because if I'm a person that justice needs to be served to, I thought, why the hell am I still here?

But, I do appreciate the nice letter. It makes me very happy when you say that you "won't let me suffer alone" because that is basically what I need. Like I said, I'm way too emotional a lot of the time so I just need people to bear with me. Unfortunately, the "strong, sensible Aysha" you see is one that I almost never see, because I"m too busy pointing out my flaws. I do that  because another thing about my mom is that whatever you do and however you act is never good enough. So thanks for the compliment, even though I kind of find it hard to believe I'm those things.

As for what you said about collapsing, I don't think you would. I think you'd pick up the phone and call the police and get out of that situation all by yourself, unlike me, a coward. I think you would pick yourself up and go to counselling and go to the doctor and get better. Then, you would grow up and be rich and successful and do whatever you wanted. Again, the strong person you're seeing is not really existent to me. I've already "collapsed", so to speak. The memory of the day I searched up "How to kill yourslef painlessly" is burned into my brain. There's lot of things I do that I'm not willing to share to cope. But thanks for the support and niceness.

Thanks again for being nice, guys.