User:AJ (QA)/wowie wowie, I’ve returned to my blog, frens

DISCLAIMER:Don’t read this if you’re sensitive to LGBTQ+ topics or if you’re not prepared for sleep-deprived, lovesick gibberish.

Okay.

I, uh.......where the fuck do I begin???? Oh goodness.

Right lads, so it’s thanksgiving for all you ‘muricans out there. Today was a WONDERFUL day for me. My dreams came true. I’ll do a little summary of what happened in a sec, but uh, yeah......I’m back on my blog. Forgot it existed.

......I’m getting a ukulele for Christmas.....

Alright alright, okay. Fine. I’ll stop stalling.

(SKIP PAST THIS PART IF YOU’VE BEEN KEEPING UP WITH MY MESSAGES ON URSUUL’S MESSAGE WALL/YOU KNOW EXACTLY WHO ROXANNE IS AND HOW I FEEL ABOUT HER)

Right so, okay.....I’m gay. Do y’all know that??? I think I’ve said it a lot....well, got it out of the way. Im not like, gay in the conventional sense. I’m one of those ‘impressionable youth’ that believes that there is not just two genders. I think that demigender people are valid, intersex people are valid, agender people are valid, bigender people are valid, etc. You disagree with me? Fine. Just don’t call me mean names over it, ok?? That considered...I currently identify as polysexual-questioning, because I feel attracted to most people regardless of their gender identity and whatever, but not all of them. So, um....how do I sum this up???

I have a best friend. Her name is Roxanne and she’s pansexual and a gamer, and an amazing person all around. Me and her went to a pride parade a while back, she said (while we were holding hands) “I wish I had a gf like you”. I thought that was really sweet, and basically said “uh huh, me to. You’re cool.” Fast forward to last week, I talked to Ursuul and some of y’all about it. Also some friends on twitter. Y’all basically said, “mate, you friendzoned her. She wants to date you”. I denied that a TON. You can ask Ursuul or go look at the chat logs from last Tuesday night if you want. But then, I finally accepted it. I decided to ask her out yesterday. I told two close IRL friends. But then, I had so much anxiety from it that I was shivering and I got a stomachache and threw up. In the past two weeks, I’ve had like 4 breakdowns cuz of this.

Fast forward to today....meet me in chat like, any time if you want to know every detail of this part of the story. I’ll just sum it up real quick: I went outside today, freaking out and saying to one of the IRL friends that I would talk to Roxy tomorrow. She was pushing me to tell Roxy today. It was raining, and I was just standing there in the snowy field with the rain pouring down, with no jacket on. I was flipping out/having another breakdown. I came out on the spot to the IRL friend’s friend, who is also friends w/ Roxy so I could vent. Let’s call her C. She was great. I finally agreed at the tail end of lunch to talk to Roxy, but the IRL friend too a long time to get her so I was literally standing under a tree in the pouring rain, shivering and balling and yelling a lot, and C wiped my tears from my face and told me she felt the sad way as me (so,,,wtf?? That means she’s gay too, lol. Oops, I think I took that badly because I was freaking out. I just said “OH.”) Then finally, the IRL friend brought over Roxy and basically ran away with C, and I was standing there starting to basically wail now, and Roxy, bless her soul, wrapped her jacket around me, and.....

And now we’re dating. I confessed and she said she liked me back and HOLY SHIT HERES THE PART WHERE I STAR USING CAPS LOCK CUZ AHHHHHHH

THIS ACTUALLY HAPPENED!!! WE ARE DATING!!! IT FEELS LIKE ITS UNREAL!!!! BUT ITS REAL!!!! SHE KISSED ME ON THE CHEEK TWICE, LADS!!! SHE INVITED ME ON A DATE!!! I CALLED HER ‘LOVE’!!!!! THIS IS MY FURST RELATIONSHIP WTF AHHHHHHH?!???!!!!!

TL;DR: IM GAY AND IM DATING MY BEST FRIEND WHICH I HAD CRAZY ANXIETY OVER BUT SHE LIKES ME BACK AND ITS HAPPENING NOW WOO IM VERY VERY HAPPY

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